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Is just so so...
Wrong....

Well, as you can guess, thing's never became better with my studies... I'm on the edge of giving up...
Talked to a consulter for "studying with disabilities" today. She too agreed this may not be the best education for me because of my dyscalculia... witch she btw issued due that in my certificate, it only says "possibility of may or may not be", kinda. I will however still consider that I have dyscalculia until opposite is proven. 'Cause it's not like I do it for fun. I DO have problems with basic maths. And that's how it is.

I'm breaking down because of my education... I cry at least 2-3 times per week. I can't sleep correctly.
I can't learn this brain-wash...
All from the start, they (teachers etc.) said that "question/doubt everything we say". And yet, there is only right and wrong their way, in the manners they set grades and educate us... (!)
This duality makes me confused. It's paradoxical and annoying, since I question EVERYTHING about it. I never speak of my opinions, for what's the point except being attacked by strangers...?
I hate debating.
I hate being questioned in that superior way; "It's this way or no others".
I hate being looked down on for my different opinions. I just keep my mouth shut for the moment.

So I have come to a conclusion.
I will quit.
And I will instead apply for two schools; one photo and one digital creation. Both is profession-educations, and have high period-costs.
But I will try.
I will try.

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